All characters in this story are fictitious; and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
I walked across my bedroom towards my open..balcony....the beautiful silver curtains danced in the breeze..the grey clouds had filled the sky...I dragged my plastered leg across the room and managed my way to the balcony...I could see flashes of light here and there...the sky looked so beautiful..the mix of crimson ,purple, grey and red , it looked like an abstract art piece...I never understand abstract art , but i still think they are beautiful...
Chennai looked so beautiful from here, I could see a thin line of blue in the distance, the beach never looked so beautiful ever....the huge cross on the church looked like as if it was suspended from the sky..The grey clouds had covered the city...There was sudden peace.. I had never enjoyed this place so much..
The wind was playing with everything on its way....the trees were swaying in rhythm ...they looked so graceful....the wind decided to play with me..it played with my hair that i had carelessly tucked behind my ear....i loved the way it flirted with me...Ive never had so much attention in ages.. I silently enjoyed ..the fragrance of wet mud filled the air ...the first drop of rain fell on my face.. I felt beautiful..I felt loved...my skirt kept swirling along with the wind....I conveniently ignored my ugly looking plastered feet...
I had forgotten the pain...the accident seemed like a distant memory...the first drop of rain fell on my face..it was magic..I was enjoying every minute of it..Why hadn't i enjoyed this before.? Why didn't I feel this beautiful and gorgeous before.? Why Didn't the sky look so beautiful ? I felt alive today..I felt I had woken up after a long sleep...
Was it work that prevented me to enjoy moments like these? Was it my race to success that blinded me? Was it my anger to emotions that hardened my heart? Was it just the heat that drained of all my energy? I still could not figure out the answer..am sure all these had something to do with the way I felt..This was not the first time it was raining..I have seen this before..!!! But never felt so good about it...
Should I feel this way? This year was not a bed of roses..I was supposed to feel bad and depressed..I was cheated by my boy friend, the one person around whom my life had revolved...I suddenly felt empty..a strange vaccum had crept into me.; I was not given the promotion I had been waiting for years..Instead I was just ignored by my boss being stereotyped a headstrong woman.. In my race to being "the winner" I had missed on all those "slumber parties", and those little coffee meets..my friends had organised "To catch up with the old times" which i thought was insignificant...I was 30 and unmarried and my folks were disappointed with the way I had lived my life..I was a total mess..and to top it all..The accident...I do not know what i was thinking..all I remember was bumping into this Humongous tree..and the next thing I feel is a heavy mass on my leg..It was all plastered..The last time I had broken my arm ..I remember signs and messages all over my cast..but now, it was white , as white as snow...
Suddenly every pain seemed distant....It started raining heavily I was drenched....I limped my way to the porch....Why did I not feel what i was supposed to ?..why was i happy? Was I going crazy?? No I was not..I was completely aware of everything..It was not the pain killer that relieved me of the pain.. It was love... I suddenly realized what love meant..This was "it"..I started falling in love with life...with me..with the little ray of hope god had shown on me ..You do not need a guy to be in love with....You can be in love with life ..and thats exactly what I felt...I was in love with ME..thats why I felt so beautiful...One accident!!! changed it all, changed me!!!!....
I walked across my bedroom towards my open..balcony....the beautiful silver curtains danced in the breeze..the grey clouds had filled the sky...I dragged my plastered leg across the room and managed my way to the balcony...I could see flashes of light here and there...the sky looked so beautiful..the mix of crimson ,purple, grey and red , it looked like an abstract art piece...I never understand abstract art , but i still think they are beautiful...
Chennai looked so beautiful from here, I could see a thin line of blue in the distance, the beach never looked so beautiful ever....the huge cross on the church looked like as if it was suspended from the sky..The grey clouds had covered the city...There was sudden peace.. I had never enjoyed this place so much..
The wind was playing with everything on its way....the trees were swaying in rhythm ...they looked so graceful....the wind decided to play with me..it played with my hair that i had carelessly tucked behind my ear....i loved the way it flirted with me...Ive never had so much attention in ages.. I silently enjoyed ..the fragrance of wet mud filled the air ...the first drop of rain fell on my face.. I felt beautiful..I felt loved...my skirt kept swirling along with the wind....I conveniently ignored my ugly looking plastered feet...
I had forgotten the pain...the accident seemed like a distant memory...the first drop of rain fell on my face..it was magic..I was enjoying every minute of it..Why hadn't i enjoyed this before.? Why didn't I feel this beautiful and gorgeous before.? Why Didn't the sky look so beautiful ? I felt alive today..I felt I had woken up after a long sleep...
Was it work that prevented me to enjoy moments like these? Was it my race to success that blinded me? Was it my anger to emotions that hardened my heart? Was it just the heat that drained of all my energy? I still could not figure out the answer..am sure all these had something to do with the way I felt..This was not the first time it was raining..I have seen this before..!!! But never felt so good about it...
Should I feel this way? This year was not a bed of roses..I was supposed to feel bad and depressed..I was cheated by my boy friend, the one person around whom my life had revolved...I suddenly felt empty..a strange vaccum had crept into me.; I was not given the promotion I had been waiting for years..Instead I was just ignored by my boss being stereotyped a headstrong woman.. In my race to being "the winner" I had missed on all those "slumber parties", and those little coffee meets..my friends had organised "To catch up with the old times" which i thought was insignificant...I was 30 and unmarried and my folks were disappointed with the way I had lived my life..I was a total mess..and to top it all..The accident...I do not know what i was thinking..all I remember was bumping into this Humongous tree..and the next thing I feel is a heavy mass on my leg..It was all plastered..The last time I had broken my arm ..I remember signs and messages all over my cast..but now, it was white , as white as snow...
Suddenly every pain seemed distant....It started raining heavily I was drenched....I limped my way to the porch....Why did I not feel what i was supposed to ?..why was i happy? Was I going crazy?? No I was not..I was completely aware of everything..It was not the pain killer that relieved me of the pain.. It was love... I suddenly realized what love meant..This was "it"..I started falling in love with life...with me..with the little ray of hope god had shown on me ..You do not need a guy to be in love with....You can be in love with life ..and thats exactly what I felt...I was in love with ME..thats why I felt so beautiful...One accident!!! changed it all, changed me!!!!....
Lovely write up. Part fiction n part ur lyf.... nicely done...
ReplyDeletePs: one thing abt dis is off.. "Rainin in Chennai" is a bit too much dnt u think??
@arun: thank you for your feedback..am glad u liked it..nd btw..i really did RAIN...:P
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